Me, having a baby? Mmm...I used to think I was ready to have one. Fortunately, since I've been helping Mommy taking care TingTong, only I realized that having a baby is not easy. Well, don't blame me. I still remembered the day when I had to care for Lil Sis. It was easy. Even Mommy said she's surprised of how easy it was with Lil Sis. Yea, Lil Sis always be a good, obedient one, unlike me who's a total rebellious haha. Don't get me wrong. TingTong is a wonderful baby, but she has her own temperament. It's perfectly normal, she's just trying to be a baby =) I'm glad that I have the chance of taking care her, she teaches me how a real baby should behave and make me realized that no, I'm not ready to have one my own.
I don't mind waking up in the middle of the night to feed and play with my lil ones. I don't mind spending much of my time playing with her or him (or both ahaha). I don't mind cleaning up the poo-poo and all. I don't mind if my husband said "I want you to stop working and take care of the babies". Seriously, I don't mind, provided that he could give me what I want (read: shoes!!). What I'm afraid is I can't be a good mother. I'm not sure about other people but for me, being a mother means not only I'm responsible for conceiving and giving birth to the baby, I'm also responsible to educate and shape my children to be persons with healthy personalities and soul that obeys the Mighty One. I don't think I'm ready for that. It's a huge responsibility. I'm not saying that I'm running from the responsibility. I know one day I'll be ready but that day is still far. I still have to equip myself with the knowledge. Geez, I guess being competitive is not always good after all.
Well, Big Sis, I'm sorry but I can't have babies right now. Perhaps in 10 years time. I need to find a good husband first hehe. Perhaps you can help me with finding one eh?
Imagine if I have babies this many??
Sure meriah haha
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