I was shocked. I still am. I wasn't sure how to react. I couldn't sense my feelings. Anger? Disappointed? Sadness? Confused? All I know I hate the feeling that I felt. I seldom felt that way and perhaps that's why I couldn't figure out what it really was. After for a period of time, the feeling still lingers. It’s what I called 'HURT'. It all started when I accidentally found out that a very dear person called me a LIAR!
I wasn't sure what I did that made this person called me such. Whatever it was, I apologize. And I forgive this person for calling me a liar. I know I'm not a good person, I've done my fair in evil things, but I still don't get it why this person called me a liar. Is that what this person think I was? A liar? All this while, I thought I was someone who this person can depend on, someone this person can trust but I was certainly wrong.
I'm not sure why I feel hurt by this accusation. I mean this person has done other things that supposed to hurt me more than this accusation. This person was the first and only person who had slapped me. This person accused me for stealing this person's stuff few days before my 20th birthday and didn't wish on my birthday when this person never misses anyone's birthday. Calling me a liar was certainly the worse thing that could come out from this person's mouth.
I really not sure what I should do. It is so painful. I don't mind if other people call me such but when it comes from someone who's very dear to me, someone who I really care, the pain is just too much for me to bear.
I wonder how long it will take to heal, or will it ever heal at all.
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