New Sem

The new sem has begun!!  Yeay!!  I hope this new sem will bring new meaning in my life hehe.  I promised myself not to skip class as much as I did last sem, coz I think it really jeopardized my grades yucks!!

Anyway, to all HELP students (yes, I go to HELP), hope this new sem will bring sweet memories to u guys!!

Happy Mommy's Day!!

Yup, today is Mother's Day and I'm sure a lot of mommies out there receiving the 'queen' treatments today.  Some people bring their moms to spa.  Some bought flowers for them.  Some even organize a picnic for their mommies, like Mr Platinum.  Some, perhaps due to budget problems, give cards to their mommies.  It doesn't matter, it's the thought that counts, as Mommy said once.  I remember when I was young, all I could give to Mommy was the plain old wish 'Happy Mommy's Day, Mommy'.  Then when I was in primary school, I started buying her cards coz that's what my friends did haha.  The first real pressie I bought for Mommy was a yellow vase.  I was nine I guess.  I had to say it was a kinda lame vase, but I wasn't sure what to get for Mommy coz buying pressies for her is kinda erm...difficult.  Don't blame her, it's just she has exquisite taste for everything =)

This year, I was totally out of idea what to get her so my sisters and I figured out that a great dinner is the best option.  But Big Sis couldn't make it on Sunday so we celebrated Mother's Day a day earlier.  Hahah nobody celebrate Mother's Day on Saturday, Aida.  It was crazy, but I guess last night was the best Mother's Day ever coz Mommy didn't expect it.  I swear she was almost in tears but she hold herself coz we're in public.  Mommy, you can cry if you want coz I love to see your nose turned red when you cry hehehe.

To all great mothers out there, and of coz to the greatest mommy in the world, Mommy, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!

Giving In

Mom used to say, as a younger sister I have to give in every time me and Big Sis quarrelled, even though it's not my fault.  She said, as the younger one, I must respect my Big Sis and by giving in did not mean that I lost the 'fight'.

Now, whenever Lil Sis make scene and we ended up in quarrel, guess what?   Yup, it's my turn to give in, again.  Mommy said, as the elder one, I must give in so that I can set example to Lil Sis.

As a child, I'm really confused of what Mommy trying to tell me. Should I give in to elders as a sign of respect or should I give in to youngsters as a good example?  What happened to those elders and youngsters that I had to give in to?  Do they ever give in to anyone at all? I don't know, it's not my concern.

Sometimes I feel it's very unfair for me to give in all the time but I did anyway.  With my sisters, it's just a way to avoid Mom scolding me later for being so stubborn.  I figured if it would make her happy then why not.  But of course the anger still lingers inside me.  The only way that I know to let out those angers is by crying, and I still do that till now.  I cry when I'm sad.  I cry when something touches my heart.  I cry when I feel like I'm losing hope.  I cry when I'm angry.  I cry for every single thing.  Yup, call me a cry-baby, I don't mind.  I cry my own tears, and I don't use anyone's money by crying.

Now I have to say that I thank Mommy for making me give in all the time.  It helps me to know myself better.  It helps me to think more, about myself, life and other people.  It helps me to be more patient.  It helps me to deals with negative remarks that I got from people.  It helps me to see other people's true colours, which is not always nice.  It shows me that I could create WW3 but I choose peace.  More importantly, it shows me that arrogant people stay arrogant, forever.

But still, I feel disappointed at times as people see my act of giving in as an act of cowardice.  For this, they assume that I'm such a weak person and they put on their arrogant persona whenever I'm around.  Thank you, ladies and gentlemen.  I'm so honoured to see your arrogance side, only God can repay you all for the chances.

For those who always giving in to others, be proud that God give us such patience.  Patience will make us stronger.  To those who refused to give in coz you think you're the elder ones, or the younger ones, or think that you just won't give in to anything, most probably God will give you a different way to test your patience.  I just hope it's not too painful compared to giving in.

Thank You

To someone who has been in my life once,


Thank you so much for the chance of knowing you.  I really appreciate it, even though I felt what had happened should be avoided.  I know it was my mistake, but still you had led me to make such stupid decision.

Anyway, thanks for making me realized who I really am and what I really want in life.  It was a terrible experience but I definitely had the best lesson.

Thanks again.

H.O.L.I.D.A.Y.

Finally, I can have a good rest for two whole weeks.  Yeay!!  Thinking of going away with the girls but I'm not sure if I could make it.  I promised Mommy that I'll help her look after TingTong (the baby that Mommy babysits) during my hols.  She's such a sweetie-pie!!  I have to say that I rushed back home during exams so that I could play with her.  Haha silly me!  Luckily she's not my baby, or I would've missed the exams!  I haven't seen her since yesterday and I have to say I really miss her a lot!!!

ps: Girls, I think I have to pass the TS trip again.  Perhaps next time =)