Fly, Baby, Fly

As I mentioned in my previous post, I just lost my baby Budak.  It's been 2 weeks now, and boy I still miss him loads.  Everything I do will reminds me of him.  Luckily (or am I that lucky?) that my days have been quite busy lately or I'll be so depressed that I can't do anything right.  I know it's a bit too much but I love him dearly.  He's like a real human child.  I talk to him a lot nowadays, especially when I drive in the morning.  I hope he knows how much we love him.  Budak, wherever you are, I hope you're happy and healthy.  I love you.

A week after I found him

Relieved, Depressed, Depressed, Relieved, Depressed...

Life for the last 3 weeks has been like an adventurous roller-coaster ride for me.  Sometimes it made me feel relieved, but depressed most of the time.  You see, I just started this graduate course sponsored by the government (yup, I like free stuff, but I like knowledge more!).  It's fun.  Made new friends, explored new areas, gaining new knowledge and most of all, engaged with myself more.  It made me realized that hey, I do have strengths that I never thought I would have.  The people I met there are amazing.  Seriously one of the best bunch of people I've ever met.  Luckily for me that I still got another 2++ months to spend with them and boy, I'd miss them terribly much after the course  is over.

Another not-so-great story that happened to me at the same time I enrolled the course was my little tinny fella (Budak) was diagnosed with parvo virus.  That was heartbreaking.  He was so tiny, and I really didn't know how  he found such strength during the hard time.  After 6 days, the vet said he was recovering but his red blood cell level was a bit alarming.  We (my sis & I) were determined to care for me at home, and glad that we did.  The morning after we brought him home, he left us to meet with the Great One.  It was devastating.  It still is.  He was so tiny, and young.  However, I know that He loves him more.  I'm glad that he no longer has to suffer the pain but as a mere human, I do miss him dearly.  We found him when his eyes were not yet opened and nurtured him till he was so naughty and became an expert furniture climber.  Sometimes I feel it's unfair but who am I to question His plan.  One thing for sure, I'm glad that he left while he was lying on my palms.  He's tiny you know.  But it's sad because it was the same hand that rescued him from the deep, dirty drain 4 months ago.  Budak, please know that we always love you and you will never be forgotten.  Ever.

Gimme Back My Time

Tomorrow is the start of the 2nd week of 2013.  Whoa how fast time flies!  I feel like it's only yesterday that I watched the not-so-happening-new-year fireworks on TV with my lil sis and it's already the 7th.  Sigh.  Oh, yeah, I went to an event today.  It's not a glamour event but rather an educational one.  It was so informative but one negative thing that I didn't quite like, in fact I was a bit annoyed.  It was delayed for almost 30 mins!!  I don't blame the organizers coz it wasn't their fault.  They did stated the exact time of the event but somehow, some people became so selfish  and decided to turn up pretty late.  Worse, some even decided not to come at all without prior notice!!  How selfish was that!!  It was not your time that you wasted, it was other people's time, and we can't have it back!  I'm really disappointed with this attitude.  I remember few years back when some of my foreign friends said "You have to schedule at least 30 mins earlier if you're dealing with Malaysians"!  I feel so ashamed!!  And even more ashamed when some Malaysians are proud of their i'm-on-my-way-la-bro attitude.  Aiseh, don't they know that time is more valuable than money?  I don't mind if you like to waste your time but when it involves my super precious time, then I guess I have the right to be super duper pissed!!

Uncle Rohn said it well

Dream, Dream, Dream

Have you guys ever dream of something that is so simple but so weird at the same time?  Like really, freaking weird?  I know dream is not my day-to-day topic, unlike my elder sis who loves talking about her daily dreams.  For me, dreams are just dreams.  I did read that some people claimed that our dreams are experiences that were being imprinted by our sub-conscious mind.  Yeah, it might be true, I guess that's the reason we dream of people or places that are familiar to us.  But that's where the connection between dream world and reality ends, well at least that's what I think.

So back to the weird dream.  Everything was fine in the dream, until some unexpected thing happened.  I was like OMG!!  Really OMG!!  That thing did cross my mine, in reality, once, but I never thought that it could really happened!  Well, at least in the dream.  And to make it even worse, I keep thinking about it, like I can't take it out of my mind at all.  Seesh, I hate when this kinda thing happened.  What if everything that I imagine in this OTT, OMG-what-were-u-thinking imagination will be mortalized in my dream world?  And I remember them when I wake up?  I will make my life a miserable one!!  I hate it!  Menyampah.  Now how am I going to face this person without having flashback played in my mind?  Oh my Lord, please kills all brain cells that related to the dream, I have no idea how to solve this thing.

I should better off to bed now but this Setia Hujung Nyawa drama series make me glued to this screen.  Haishh....  Night people!